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Why?

by *veritas08, Nov 2, 2012, 11:06:13 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Looking for answers to my questions,
But I'm not sure what I'm asking.
There lies dark roads ahead,
But I have nothing to light my way.

It's hard to empty.
To feeling nothing anymore.
The callouses building.
No pain until they are ripped away.

Until there is nothing left,
But a hollow shell.
An empty lie.

Think things are going good?
It's only an illusion.
Clear your vision and see,
The lie that hides beneath.

Watching, waiting.
Looking for the perfect chance to break you.

Leaving you cold, shivering, and alone.
Clutching the pieces of your heart, wondering,

Why?

Mime

by *veritas08, Apr 10, 2012, 3:36:40 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

It's hard to communicate when
You're silenced by black and white paint.
Gloved white hands try to express,
But none understand the charade.

A face that carries a masked smile,
But eyes that shine emptily through.
Deep inside you know the truth.
They don't and won't understand you.

Dressed in stripes like a criminal,
You are locked up inside your act.
Your invisible brick walls
Ironically imprison you.

So take your invisible rope
Wrap it around your throat.
Knot, pull taut.

Jump.

Is it still an act?

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TemptationsCrossroads, Time to choose.
Which way to win?
Which way to lose?

Darkness pulls me one way,
My heart fights back.
Which way will keep me,
Keep me on track?

You say, embrace the sin.
It's a part of who you are.
I say, it doesn't define me.
I am more than these scars.

I am more than this provincial way of life.
I will not, go down without a fight.
I will stand, to face the dark inside.
I won't be consumed by the lies.
I won't be consumed by the lies.

My sin weighs down on me.
The temptations arise.
They taunt and tease me,
Try to break me inside.

But this heart's still beating.
This soul wants to be clean.
So I'll shield myself from death'Temptations by *veritas08

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FragilityThose days when you feel like you're made of glass.
Those days when you feel breakable.
All you want is someone to hold you together.
To make sure you don't shatter.

Why do I feel so fragile?
Why do I feel so alone?
Why do I feel I need a rock
Or something to keep me afloat?

Is it you that will hold me together?
Keep me afloat?
Be my rock, my refuge, my boat?

Or will you pull me beneath the waves?
Break me down?
Throw me on the floor and crush me down

Tiny shards are not what I want to be.
I want to be whole and free.
Tiny shards are not what I want to be.
I want to be whole and free.

What will you make me?Fragility by *veritas08

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FlowersFlowers, still fresh in their gifted vase.
It's the last single trace
Of your gracing my doorstep.
And I wait for those flowers to die.
But they die too slowly.
A symbol of your love for me,
A love I failed to return.
Despite your respect for me,
Your perfect honesty,
You were everything I needed.
Still I felt nothing.
I tried to embrace it,
I really did.
I tried to feel for you
As you felt for me.
But you can't persuade a heart.
Especially a heart that seems of stone.
To feel cold towards love
Because I don't know how it feels anymore.Flowers by *veritas08

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Running AwayI ran away from you.
Turned tail and fled.
I told you to stay away from me.
And you didn't listen, no.

Trying to get one last sight
Before the winter comes.

One last look to kill the pain.
Wonder if you will ever quit screaming my name.
I'm not yours to keep, no.
My heart will never reach for you.

I bring you happiness.
Wish I didn't, no.
You bring me stinging fear.
Guess you'll always come around.

You say you can't find closure.
Well look harder.
You say you can't stay away.
Well try harder.

I'll just continue to run away.
Maybe you will get the idea.
Because you don't seem to believe
That I just want you away from me.Running Away by *veritas08

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SelfishRip apart my hope.
Smash my happiness
Because you are subtracted from the equation.

You're not happy.
Could care less,
Because I don't love you.

You're selfish.
I don't want to be your crutch,
Your painkillers, your need.
I am a person. I'm not a thing.
Do I get a say in this?

Not in your mind. No.
Not in your mind.

You claim to love me.
That's a lie.
You could care less about my happiness.
All you care about is how you feel.
You don't care that my happiness
Equals the absence of you.

You don't seem to care that you are killing me now.

Drowning. Sinking. Crying. Screaming.
But you refuse to listen.

You just stare
WitSelfish by *veritas08

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FearYou're way too weak.
Too weak to stay away from me.
Is that healthy?
Not for you. Not for me.

I build up my walls.
I build them tall.
Build them thick.
But you still try to climb over.

It's hopeless really.
I'll never let you in.
I may be too nice to demolish you,
But that does not give you the right to try again.

You chase me like a lost puppy.
Hackles raised I hiss like a cat,
Ready to drag my claws across your face.

Will you run away when I pounce,
Tail between your legs?
You will you whimper and bite me back,
Refusing to lessen your grip?

Please let me go. Just let me go.

You're the wrecking ball
Knocking down what Fear by *veritas08

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Can We Be Friends?Standing outside my door
Note in hand.
Barely legible scrawled,
Can we be friends?

No.
We can't.
Because you'll always want more.

You're eyes don't hide a thing.
I see the way you look at me.
The pitiful stare of wanting.
But you're wanting something you can't have.

You can't have me.
I won't let that be.

You think it's destiny.
That you and I are meant to be.
That's a lie.

I refuse you, yet you still try.
Going to pitiful measures.
Just to gain a cold shoulder.
A turned back.

But you pretend you're getting somewhere.
You just can't give up your false hope.
That one day destiny will bring us together.
It's not happeningCan We Be Friends? by *veritas08

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Happiest Time of My LifeEach morning crestfallen
Waking up a sour taste on my tongue
Because I don't wake up in heaven.
I wake up in my own hell.

Broken down. Beaten by life.
But tears don't run down my face.
I'm stronger than that.
So much stronger.

I remember when you and I were together.
When we had our brief romance.
That had been the best time of my life.
Guess I have to change that.

But I keep turning that stone
Over and over in my mind.
Because I just can't forget those days.
Those days when everything was new and perfect.

Can't blame you. It's my fault too.
I was the one who messed up.
But I messed up because of you.
Damn my fear. Damn myHappiest Time of My Life by *veritas08

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Black WidowEight legs crawling.
Venom dripping.
The red hourglass is ticking.
Beware the bite.
Put up a fight.
You won't make it out alive.

It's too late for you now.
You're tangled in the web.
Of her lust and lies.
She'll suck you dry.
Leave you empty inside.
Just like her other prey.

The black widow always eats her mate.
The black widow always eats her mate.Black Widow by *veritas08

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A Quick Little RomanceYou've got your tongue in her mouth.
She's staring into your eyes.
She's got her hands on you.
She can't take her hands off you.

Guess this is what you wanted.
A little bit of attention.
Guess this is what you desired.
A little fling, of all things
A quick little romance.

She gives you what I didn't give.
Complete undivided attention.
Always together.
But it can't last forever.
Because it's built on sand.

Guess this is what you wanted.
A little bit of attention.
Guess this is what you desired.
A little fling, of all things
A quick little romance.A Quick Little Romance by *veritas08

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I'm Back For Now!!

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 25, 2013, 8:44 PM

Mood: Lonely
Listening to: Black Veil Brides

Sorry I haven't been on in a while. It's just that I haven't had inspiration in a while, meaning I having been overjoyed or totally depressed in a while. But I guess everyone needs an update. I'm sure you know of my stalker problem. If not, I have a whole folder on it in my gallery, and some other journals that address it. But I have good news in that field. My stalker no long lives in my apartment. In fact, he moved out. Why? I think he was so fixated on me he failed to pay attention to what is currently more important and probably preferred his company more than I did: his classes. So yeah. He failed out, so he moved out. So I won't be seeing him any time soon. But I guess that is the only completely good news I can supply right now.

In the last journal I proclaimed that I was over guy numero uno. Well, I think that was total bull on my part. I keep thinking I am, but when it gets down to it, it is not likely. Almost every time I see a picture of him or run into him, I dream of him in the next few days. It sucks. Especially since practically all those dreams involve him getting back with me. Usually he puts his arm around me or talks about how he would prefer me over his current girlfriend. One time his girlfriend told me he liked me. That was a weird dream. One time I even kissed him in my dream. But the worst part is whenever I wake up totally disappointed. I tell myself this is for the best, and I bring up all the negative traits he had, but it is not convincing enough for my lovesick, lonely subconscious. So I'm still stuck dreaming about some guy that I barely talk to, like some nerdy high school girl who has fallen head over heels for the most popular schoolboy. Except the guy is in fact a video game nerd, not a jock. And this is college, not high school. But either way, it is like a sad circumstance that will never occur. So I guess I'll just wait around for some other guy to take over my dreams. Hopefully one I can actually have a change with, cause I screwed mine up with guy number one.

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