Journal Entry: Fri Jan 25, 2013, 8:44 PM
Listening to: Black Veil Brides
Sorry I haven't been on in a while. It's just that I haven't had inspiration in a while, meaning I having been overjoyed or totally depressed in a while. But I guess everyone needs an update. I'm sure you know of my stalker problem. If not, I have a whole folder on it in my gallery, and some other journals that address it. But I have good news in that field. My stalker no long lives in my apartment. In fact, he moved out. Why? I think he was so fixated on me he failed to pay attention to what is currently more important and probably preferred his company more than I did: his classes. So yeah. He failed out, so he moved out. So I won't be seeing him any time soon. But I guess that is the only completely good news I can supply right now.
In the last journal I proclaimed that I was over guy numero uno. Well, I think that was total bull on my part. I keep thinking I am, but when it gets down to it, it is not likely. Almost every time I see a picture of him or run into him, I dream of him in the next few days. It sucks. Especially since practically all those dreams involve him getting back with me. Usually he puts his arm around me or talks about how he would prefer me over his current girlfriend. One time his girlfriend told me he liked me. That was a weird dream. One time I even kissed him in my dream. But the worst part is whenever I wake up totally disappointed. I tell myself this is for the best, and I bring up all the negative traits he had, but it is not convincing enough for my lovesick, lonely subconscious. So I'm still stuck dreaming about some guy that I barely talk to, like some nerdy high school girl who has fallen head over heels for the most popular schoolboy. Except the guy is in fact a video game nerd, not a jock. And this is college, not high school. But either way, it is like a sad circumstance that will never occur. So I guess I'll just wait around for some other guy to take over my dreams. Hopefully one I can actually have a change with, cause I screwed mine up with guy number one.